crash

I felt like a suicide
daring life to to leave me
every moment
another pain
another sorrow
for this i waited to see
what would happen
the world spun
the moon swung overhead
i lay immersed in my introspection
going emptily inside
outside
always I
around it all
no way out or in
just the walls
and walls
and walls
i find waiting
at the end of my days

torn

my love
i am undone
today was magic
and i am dieing
i will not wait much longer
time is a waste
i love u
sleep sound
i will dream of us
i awake
and all is pain
confusion
i am sad for a while
powerless to control my fate
every neuron fires
but thoughts pulsate
without sense or meaning
i am unsure
about everything this moment
i feel weak
but i must face another day
torn
i saw the snickers
and thought
she is low blood sugar
hypoglycemic
miss u

unending

my search ends here with you
left before we knew
sands riven by the storm
enfolds the sea
holding sweet memory
and you

you

you're a human comedy
not a tragedy
those things, the wanting, that is where the lesson is
you want what you can have rather than love
and that leaves your wanting unfulfilled
you find the center and it moves away
you are never where you want to be
until you realize you are perfect in every way
every life seeks the love you feel
in your heart
you know what that is
but you cannot find it outside of yourself
so you believe you have commited something wrong
to be denied what you know you deserve
the heart seeks union
inside each of you is the union of the self and the one true nature
that is the union you seek
but your youth and physical seeking leads you to look outside of yourself
and you are forever uplifted and rejected
there are two absolutes in lifes understanding
giving up everything
and having everything
both are obsessed with things
both identify with the external as the true source of experience
neither finds completion or harmony
your path will never be anyone elses
what is perfect for you will be your own creation
not a reflection of someones philosophy
feel what makes you higher as your guide
what sets your soul alight and free
in those "things" you become closer to your true nature
for everything else, believe that the sacrifice is your choice in this life
and has purpose that will be revealed as soon as you are ready to understand
and be open to love
for it will sustain when nothing else will
know that you created this life as your journey
as your spiritual path revealed and sacred
nothing is done by chance but by divine inspiration
the universe supports everything and knows only giving unending
there is no thing uncreated
unsupported by love
my purpose in this life
i looked for that which is not the usual experience
but i never doubted that i was creating the realities i experienced
even in my hardest trips through the eye of the needle and into the soul of gods love
i knew it was I
and I alone there in every moment i created my experience
losing your mind is losing of your responsibilities
not your sanity
your trust in your self to become
that which your life would not allow
that is the losing your mind
its finding your true self
thinking is the real culprit
the constant submission of thought for every instant of existence
as if that is somehow your experience or reality
thought is lifes blogger
not living
the ego wants to dominate your life
it creates dissension acceptance and denial
as if you do not already know
it takes lead on your feelings and thoughts without a thought for your sanity
which desires only peace and unchanging being
revealed in your precious moments of meditation
i know i pass many thoughts and words into these conversations
these come directly from the unification of my heart mind and soul with the divine
they come from your higher self touching mine
asking me to explain to touch your true heart
what you do in your life is actions karmas
but you control nothing have nothing
everything in this world is given you
and everything is taken away
except love
that you create yourself
that is the force that gives
and you are the channel of love
all else is maya
when you are born and when you die, you move through that force
love brings you and love takes you from this plane of experience
what you do here is only to expand the force and to bring everyone into the true awareness of this state of being
then the illusion will end
man will become one soul one being one love and union will be all
so when you are indulging yourself, feeling low and de-energized
know you choose that
there are a million choices to expand the conciousness of the world and you have made that yours
no harm no foul
you all need downtime
man is limited and prone to reverting to his human nature
but just resolve to see that you choose
you have the power
at every junction
you direct the self
not the self directing you

touches me

from your heart
to my soul
to the words that flow
to be forever
a practiced master
at your temple
be thy true self to all
and thine only self for me
there is no doubt or faltering
in the souls you love
my divine soul
is your divine love
we create that
which is unknowable
expression and manifestation
nothing touches me
but thy divine love
i am so moved
our meeting
union of souls
my heart so melted and opened
all else is but
my path to you
across the emptiness of the high desert
to the altar for your being
let the true light of divine shine
without boundaries
there is no air
but your love
your vision blessing
my eyes unblind
in your hands of love
your light will carry
never leave
but be always going
for my heart is enraptured
in our farewells
in my heart
you are held
forever close

unborn manifest

other: Good morning
one: hello
other: Great day today
one: unbelievable time
other: settling into this new found peace and calm
one: that will suit you well
one: i am happy
other: tried to have a talk with my partner last thursday which didn't go so well then but things are progressing nicely
other: we are both seeing each other in a new light
one: that sounds promising
other: it's just like you said....the intense love for one is slowly changing into love for all
one: and that is a constant source of delight and pain
other: slowly learning the meaning of unconditional love
one: unconditional love....giving without the expectation of receiving
one: yesssss as the women tell me
one: there is but one love in us all
other: but what about the soul connection?
one: found mysteries unfold as naked souls entwine
other: i feel it's still there but i dont need to act on it
other: it's egotistical to think that we as humans know what the soul needs
one: all comes as a parade of wonders
one: we are created
one: and dissolved
other: the soul's fate has already been written...we are merely observers
one: time keeps us in longing
one: without it we are done
one: as each moment is revealed so are we created
one: souls like a zerox copy come forth each a brilliant match for all of us
one: in each one every truth is wrtten and in every heart a loving heart can see
other: i do not believe she sees that .... YET
one: we speak but have fogetten the truth
one: the meaning for why we are meant to be
one: when we find love in every soul we touch then we are come to completion
one: yet even then the task is just begun
one: for which hearts are still troubled and forgotten must also be found
one: and healed
one: and loved
one: until the time we spend is done
one: for every moment is a million blessings
one: each a miracle of our own creation
one: an explosion of possibilities we determine
one: we choose and we either create or destroy our very meaning
one: but the universe continues to give unending
one: unable to say no
other: where is the choice?
one: unable to deny
one: in you there is the power
one: the freedom
one: the force
one: and all things become the clay of our imagination
one: the unborn manifest of our desire
one: we live our simple lives
one: gods in sheeps clothing
one: understand we can bring love so strong into every interaction
one: and free each heart from empty satisfaction
one: as god would give man life so can man give god love
one: and in each of us is gods breath reborn
one: we are a ship of soul carriers transporrted to foreign shores
one: set apart and disguised by strange destinies
one: but revealed in every loving heart
one: in a smile a laugh a kiss
one: we are not many but only one
one: and where we find that moment inside each other determines how our life has meaning
one: for there is no meaning in all creation than to know the self as the creator
one: what power we yeild is to not frighten the loving souls we care for
one: i could not be here if not for love
one: i cannot spell but know well you understand my meaning
one: i only speak like this because you want to hear what is true
other: i feel the truth
other: thank you
one: all else is what we do to avoid this in our lives
one: be kind and be true
one: gentle and loving and always reach out with a compassionate soul
one: for those who have
one: never experienced this will be forever questioning your motives
one: but compassionate love surrenders
other: that's ok
one: the snow is like a blanket of love that unifies everything you see
other: the purity of the snow = purity of our hearts
one: we are immediately brought into the magic of its powerful silence
one: a wonderful gift that all can share
one: fill this vessel with every sorrow i have not seen and let me dream again the words that lovers know
be still my heart in flight untiring in its race to your only love
for there is the kingdom and the power that no man can conquer
and there i rest in your sweet love divine

conspire

winter falls and branches uncovered
wet and westerly blow the cloudy skies
every heart awakens as
memories are taken for a ride
through every place
where lovers live alive
my love my moments apart
like diamonds under pressure gleaming
the earth streaming rivers of refrains
words spoken and pictures taken
seaside cliffs and birds wheeling
into the wind and waves
we hold in the quiet and the long moments
where grey and sun conspire
alive with sacred purpose
that fills every feeling
loving every meaning
every heart believing
where only you have been before